On Death. And Grief. I cope. .... I need to keep working on it... on grieving.

 This last month has been a tough one. Mostly mentally and emotionally.

It was also freeing. I had to be freeing –  because it was the only way forward.

My grandmother. My favorite person. My everything.

Died.

On November 9 2020.

9 days away from her 101st birthday.

I must make. I must paint, draw, make. be.

Johnathan reached out to me today.  I'm not in The Bay.

Nadeem Farooqui was found dead in his dorm in Berkeley over the weekend
NADEEM.

They don't yet have a definitive answer for what happened.

I am torn apart. I cried in front of my mom and let slip that my dad's cancer is back.

That I'm stressed and scared and ideally it will all work out, but that it's just all coming at once.

She's hurt and angered that "we don't trust her to tell her... we found out two weeks ago.

I.

I'm..

gonna go "cope" / numbmyself with TV.

| Dia de las velitas : 7 Dic 2020 |